This journey is incredibly humbling for me.

From being wounded and not knowing which way is up and wondering whether or not i could be ALIVE or not and at the same time, finding new MEANING in my new life in this FOREIGN place.....It's been an AMAZING journey

I am a daughter, sister, dog-owner and friend.

Currently, i am learning to train my mind and body. I want to hold my body, challenge my physical ability to a level i could never imagine.

I definitely have learn to stop letting these people who do so little for me in my life but control so much of my mind, feeling and emotions.

Learning to let them go from my life is definitely one of the best achievement i ever done to myself.

Goodbye my friends.... Hope when we meet again, we are once strangers again.

Monday, December 13, 2010

I'm patient now. I ain't Physioterapist anymore


A number that is right in front of me. I have been waiting for 45 mins in front of this door. Today is my 2nd appointment for my post op ACL reconstruction. Currently, I'm in General Hospital of Kuala Lumpur Orthopedic clinic, while my world-best-brother is waiting in car patiently. He knew what to prepared every time he drives me for my appointment in hospital. He got tons of DVDs in the car for him to burn his times or maybe he will catch up with his sleep he missed during his PSP game playing time.


Is another number I'm anticipating on the digital scoreboard. My internal yet reliable source told me no need to come at 9am as what my appointment written cause the specialist never come down to clinic by 9am.


Is the number of scars on my right knee. Dr. Bazam said I should take picture of my beautiful and scarless knee before operation and he is right it looks more macho now.


Is exactly one hour since i put my butt on this chair because i'm still waiting to see my doctor. My emotion is full with thoughts. This is how patient felt. Their thoughts are filled with number like mine!!!!

I'm patient now. I ain't physiotherapist anymore

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Thursday, December 9, 2010

Death and assignment.

In Mediacorp's New Beginnings, the main actor asked Jeannette Aw about death.

What is death?

Is she afraid of death???

Jeannette Aw said death means no regret with whatever you do in ur life.

Do what you must do.

Say what you must do.

Hear what you must hear.

When I heard these words, I thought of my thesis. I felt the guilt. I did not finish my thesis according to the dateline. I have been lacking. I did not do things I should do. I should say I have been lazy. I caught up with lots of dramas and movies I missed when I was in Ipoh.

Therefore, I must catch up with my dateline.

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Friday, October 1, 2010

DIGI iPhone 4 Life

Love is where the love of your life be there for you when you are down, at the lowest point of your life.

The love of your life laughs with you when you are at your highest peak.

The love of your life cries with you when you are at your lowest point.


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Nothing beat when you have the love of your life stands by you, be there for you and accompany you for the rest of your life….

iPhone 4 is the love of my life……..



My expression of life….

Thursday, September 30, 2010

" Are You Moist Enough?

Do you know there is a strict hand-washing procedure that everybody who work in wards and operating theaters must follow???

The reason????

Because there are some Tom, Dick and Harry will miss this certain parts of their hands during normal hand washing… The yellow spots showed that most frequently missed spot during hand-washing….


Therefore, everybody needs to wash their hands based on these steps:-


All together there are 7 steps for hand-washing…. And every sink in ICU, there will be a diagram like this


As a reminder to wash your hand the PROPER WAY… But, in my Intensive Care Unit itself, i have 16 patients to see for twice a day, and every time before i see the patient, i must wash my hands and every time after i see the patient, i must wash my hands too. 

This means 16 X 2 = 32 X 2times/day = 64 times. Which means, both of my delicate hands have to undergo the 7 steps for

64 x 7 days = 448 times per week.

Do you know what you get when you wash your hand that much of times????

And some more with this powerful Surgi Scrub, i cannot how my hands look like when i was 60 years old….




This picture taken from fancee1960 @Flickr 

OK, I'm exaggerating…

Probably it looks like this….


But, i want it to look like this forever!!!!


At the same time, i want to be responsible as a health care-worker to continue with the hand-washing procedure


I must search for help? i need something moist enough for my hands because my hands are not moist enough?????  


What is good for me????


There are so many in the markets till I'm so clueless to choose till i caught someone using this on her legs…. This someone has smooth legs, every night, she makes an effort to put cream on her legs so she can have a pair of beautiful and moist legs to show off her Nobody Nobody dance steps!!!!!


Nobody can beat Irene’s elder daughter Juliana for her beautiful and moist legs…… She is so proud of her legs till she can’t let go her Vaseline lotion…..

According to Vaseline, they want to empower women to love and appreciate their skin, especially the entire body. OUR BODY DESERVES TIP-TOP NOURISHMENT FROM A GOOD LOTION. Not just our pretty face!!!!!!


And Vaseline has the perfect range to cater different skins. They have Total Moisture, Healthy White, Intensive Rescue, and Aloe Cool and Fresh. I’m sure you can find the range that suits you… Therefore, all the people who washed their hands more than 448 times per week, don’t forget to get Vaseline to pamper your skin…. They need all the moist you can get….

Celebrate Amazing Skin with Vaseline


DiGi iPhone 4 Real

Oh My God!!!!! Digi iPhone 4 plan is real….. They are seriously giving us the superb discount!!!!!! From RM 88 to RM 58, RM 138 to Rm 88 and RM 238 to RM 158…. But, is it true Digi’s rate is the best in town????
Let’s make some comparison between Digi and Operator X
At a glance, Digi offers better and valuable package for all levels of users. In fact, it is much more cheaper to own a iPhone 4 through Digi. And i do not favour Operator X’s package because who would only SMS between their own network, means, you need to pay more than RM 100 or RM 155 or RM 250 for that month because for sure you will SMS other networks!!!!! Who ever plan this ‘plans’ sure think all consumers are IDIOT!!!!!
iDigi 88 Value 1 iDigi 138 Value 2 iDigi 238 Value 3
Monthly Fee RM58 RM100 RM 88 RM 155 RM 158 RM 250
Voice 200 min 222 min 450 min 667 min 1000 min 1500 min
to all network Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes
Internet 1 GB 1 GB 3 GB 2 GB 5 GB 3 GB
no excess charge Yes No Yes No Yes No
SMS 200 200 400 400 600 600
to all networks Yes No Yes No Yes No
MMS 20 20 40 40 60 60
to all networks Yes No Yes No Yes No
Excess Usage
And based on experience, Operator X has so many hidden charges, especially when exceed the data usage, paying 0.5sen/kb is killing my pocket if that month i use my data excessively.
Voice 15s/min 15s/min 12s/min 12s/min 10s/min 10s/min
Internet None 0.5s/kb None 0.5s/kb None 0.5s/kb
SMS 10 sen 10s 10 sen 10 sen 10 sen 10 sen
MMS 20 sen n/a 20 sen n/a 20 sen n/a
Therefore, at a glance, Digi IPhone is REAL because they offer a affordable, better and valuable package for me.
DIGI is 1 Malaysia because they come from all kind size and shape.
DIGI is the best, because this people work hard to make us laugh….
DIGI is the best, because this people help every body!!!!!
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Sunday, September 26, 2010

DiGi iPhone 4 Play

If you think iPhone is for people who know how to ‘play play’…
Seriously, iPhone 4 is meant for serious ‘player’
You know why iPhone 4 is important to me????
Because ‘playing’ is very important to me…..I need to play all the time….
When i watch TVB drama….
When i read blog online…. And when i wait for the page to load…
When i study or pretend to study….
All the time i play….. And when my cousin ‘loan’ or i secretly stole his iPhone…. I’m hooked…. with all the games….
I play the game when I'm stressed….. I popped ‘virtual plastic bubble’ …..I’ll think each bubble is my ‘enemy’, and ‘pop’ each of it to release my stress!!!!!
And then, when I'm got sick of ‘rubbish’ from my life, I'll tune in to Paper Toss.
I’ll throw rubbish every where….
In bar and street…. Paper Toss trains the sensitivity of my index finger….. And also the angle of my finger movement….
And when I'm in happy mood, i want to go ‘shopping’…. therefore, SUPERMARKET MANIA is my first choice…. I can stack the goods, pick the rubbish, push the cart and serve as many customers as possible….
When i need some ‘balance training’, i need this Labyrinth 3D. This game makes me move my ‘body’ up and down, side by side and up and down. So, i can move the ball into the hole!!!!
And when I'm diligent, I want to ‘stacked’ apartments… I want to build an empire. And also earn as much points as i can…..
Last but not least, every Chinese should knows how to play….
CHOR TAI DI!!!!!!!
When I'm in the mood of gamble but refused to lose any money, I'll play ‘Chor Tai Di’….. And do you know if you play ‘Chor Tai Di’, you can prevent Alzheimer Disease!!!!!!! Gambling and Alzheimer…
Wow…… iPhone 4 is definitely the phone for me to ‘play play’…. And when i ‘play play’, i can release my stress…..
iPhone 4 redefine mobile gaming…..People in Apply promise greater precision and accuracy in each turns, pitches and movement we make on the tracks…. Woohoo….
Even, he cannot resist to ‘play’ during his presentation….
Look what CNN’s Scott Steinberg spoke bout iPhone and mobile gaming here

Friday, September 24, 2010

DiGi iPhone 4 Me

Every day i carry my heavy tote bag, i asked myself, what have i done to my tote bag? Why is it so heavy???

My friends always asked me what do i have in my tote bag…..


And every day, i need to flip and throw all the things out from my bag and reorganize it again……

And all the things are so much till it overflows in my tote bag…


Here is what i have in my bag…..


Wow…… If i have IPhone 4, i can throw out my calendar, notebook, camera, Mp3 player, hand phone and calculator from my bag.


Why IPhone 4 is for me?

First, it reduces the weight of my bag. Thus, i only carry my purse and IPhone 4.


Second, it gives me a piece of mine because my calendar, notebook, camera, phone, MP3 player and calculator are all in my iPhone 4. And everything is inside one piece of magic phone!!!!!


iPhone 4 is the fourth generation of iPhone. You can use iPhone 4 for video calling, read books, editing movies, gaming.

The best thing about iPhone 4 has uninsulated stainless steel frame that acts as the phone’s antenna. It has LED crystal display. And with its 3 megapixels with flash, i can take quality pictures with no fuss…. Woohoo!!!!!

Therefore, Digi should gives iPhone 4 to me!!!!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Jay Chou – The Era

This is Jay’s latest album called The Era. And i love most of the songs inside especially “Said Goodbye" (說了再見 Shuō Le Zaì Jiàn. It is the theme song for Jet Li non-martial movie called ‘Ocean Heaven’. You can find out more about Ocean Heaven from here.
I love this song
“Said Goodbye aka Shuo Le Zai Jian” and the MV is so touching because it has a trailer of Ocean Heaven. I almost cried even by just watching this trailer.


1. "The Era" (跨時代 Kuà Shí Daì) Jun-Lang Huang (黃俊郎) 3:16
2. "Said Goodbye" (說了再見 Shuō Le Zaì Jiàn, Ocean Heaven theme song) Hsiao-Li Ku (古小力), Jun-Lang Huang (黃俊郎) 4:44
3. "Fireworks Cool Easily" (煙花易冷 Yān Huā Yì Lěng) Vincent Fang 4:25
4. "Free Tutorial Video" (免費教學錄影帶 Miǎn Feì Jiāo Xué Lù Yīng Dài) Jun-Lang Huang (黃俊郎) 4:01
5. "Long Time No See" (好久不見 Hǎo Jǐu Bù Jiàn) Jay Chou 4:14
6. "Rain Falls All Night" (雨下一整晚 Yǔ Xià Yī Zhéng Wǎn) Vincent Fang 4:18
7. "Hip-Hop Stewardess" (嘻哈空姐 Xī Hā Kōng Jiě) Vincent Fang 2:50
8. "I Weep, Spirit in Pieces" (我落淚,情緒零碎 Wǒ Luò Leì, Qíng Xù Líng Su) Vincent Fang 4:20
9. "Diary: Fly for Love" (愛的飛行日記 Aì De Fēi Xíng Rì Jì, Duet with Gary Yang) Jay Chou 4:16
10. "Self Directed and Acted" (自導自演 Zì Dǎo Zì Yǎn) Jay Chou 4:17
11. "Superman Can't Fly" (超人不會飛 Chāo Rén Bù Hùi Fēi) Jay Chou 4:59

You can get this album from here (Password:

Thursday, September 16, 2010


Hi folks,


Is time to move on… we as the younger generation needs to open our minds to all possibilities and also be friends with everybody. When we are friends with everybody from different races, ethnics and sexes, we understand each other.

When there is understanding, means we can tolerate each other’s habits, lifestyle and attitudes. So, the government should incorporate this ‘Jom Berkawan’…

I’m very happy because my friend comes from different races, ethnics and backgrounds….



Here is a video about sambal belacan but this guy who impersonated every races we have in Malaysia, enjoy it!!!!

Friday, August 27, 2010

Ding Dang - Della Album

I seriously believe Ding Dang has better vocal than Jolin Tsai. Therefore, i'm big fan of her songs.

Here are the details of her Della Album


01. 你為什么說謊 (Why Do You Lie?)
02. 花火 - 丁噹 + 五月天阿信 (Fireworks – Ding Dang + Mayday’s Ashin)
03. 夜貓 (Night Cat)
04. 他說你沒用 (Rap – Magic Power樂團) [He Said You’re Useless (Rap – Magic Power Band)]
05. 全世界不懂無所謂 (It Doesn’t Matter That The Whole World Doesn’t Understand)
06. 我愛他 (I Love Him)
07. 突然想愛你 - 丁噹 + 周華健 (Suddenly Want To Love You – Ding Dang + Emil Chau)
08. 親人 (Family)
09. 半帶電 (Semi Electric)
10. 可惜了 (Unfortunately)
11. 長大 (Grow Up)

Or Click here for the songs.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Wang Lee Hom – 18 Martial Arts (Shi Ba Ban Wu Yi)


Singer : Wang Lee Hom - 王力宏 (Wang Lee Hom)
Album : 18 Martial Arts - 十八般武艺 (Shi Ba Ban Wu Yi)
Released Date : 13 August 2010
Label : Sony BMG
Track List :
01. Dragon Dance
02. 杜 U ♥ Me - Du U Love Me
03. 十八般武艺 - Shi Ba Ban Wu Yi
04. 你不知道的事 - Ni Bu Zhi Dao De Shi
05. 伯牙绝弦 - Bai Ya Jue Xian
06. 柴米油盐酱醋茶 - Chai Mi You Yan Jiang Cu Cha
07. 美 - Mei
08. 需要人陪 - Xu Yao Ren Pei
09. 天涯海角 - Tian Ya Hai Jiao
10. 你不知道的事 (宋晓青版本) - Ni Bu Zhi Dao De Shi (Song Xiao Qing Ban Ben)
11. 自己人 - Zi Ji Ren

Click Wang Lee Hom-18 Martial Arts for the link to

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Lee Hom in Xiao Yen’s talk show (Part 5)

Part 5 talked about Lee Hom maybe looking for a girl that has similar features like ‘Liu Yi Fei’. And this one you can hear him singing ‘Ni Bu Zhi Dao De Shi’ live.

Xiao Yen is right. A guy that can sing and play piano is really mesmerizing…  And she gave Lee Hom an advice that it is ok to fall in love even though you are in entertainment field and asked him to gambate in your relationship!!!!

The End

Lee Hom in Xiao Yen’s talk show (Part 4)

SS小燕之夜 2010-08-18 pt.4/5 王力宏 電影史上最帥導演

Part 4 stated that if Lee Hom’s ‘Love in Disguise’  meets 1 million sales, he will go skinny dip but Xiao Yen Jie stated that he cannot do now because he is too skinny and is ugly. So, she suggested that he should go gym and build up his muscle first….
She also stated that his latest song ‘ Cai Mi You Yen Jiang Chu Cha’, she felt that Lee Hom yearns for this kind of lifestyle, but he felt this lifestyle is faraway from his lifestyle now. And the lyricist for this song is Eva Hsiao, and she is confused who is the one yearn for this kind of lifestyle.
Xiao Yen stated that Lee Hom is very careful in this interview. He tends to avoid the issues with girls such as Elva Hsiao and Liu Yi Fei, but slowly he managed to express his little secret under the eagle eyes of Xiao Yen Jie.
Last part 5 over next post….

Lee Hom in Xiao Yen’s Talk Show (Part 3)

SS小燕之夜 2010-08-18 pt.3/5 王力宏 電影史上最帥導演

Part 3 talked about how much connection he had with Liu Yi Fei, and XIao Yen Jie tried to trick him to express whether he like  Liu Yi Fei as girlfriend…. And why he chose Liu Yi Fei as his main actress in his "’Love in Disguise’…… And trying to ask him whether he fell in love with his main actress? And asked him what type of girls he likes? I bet everyone want to watch this….Xiao Yen is so naughty because she is trying to trick Lee Hom to express who is his girlfriend, who is Liu Yi Fei’s boyfriend or whether Lee Hom got find out that Liu Yi Fei got boyfriend or not…. At the end, she cleared the issue out and stated Lee Hom likes someone more mature and calm with everything. He doesn’t like complicated type of girls….
To be continued in Part 4….

Lee Hom in Xiao Yen’s Talk Show (Part 2)

SSI燕之夜 2010-08-18 pt.2/5 王力宏 電影史上最帥導演

This is the part 2 of the interview with Xiao Yen. They talked about Lee Hom’s involvement in movies, how he connects with Ang Lee, and how he proud he felt his music is recognized despite his music is plagiarized. Xiao Yen also noted that Lee Hom still depends on pin yin to read Chinese words. And she praised Lee Hom as good director. They talked about his skill as director, his connection with other actors and actresses (esp Liu Yi Fei)  in ‘Love in Disguise’ and the process he learnt throughout his work with ‘Love in Disguise’… 
Part 3 in next post….

Lee Hom in Xiao Yen’s Talk Show!!! (Part 1)

SS小燕之夜 2010-08-18 pt.1/5 王力宏 電影史上最帥導演

Lee Hom’s interview with Xiao Yen’s Talk Show on his latest movie ‘Love in Disguise’ and his latest album. The 18 Martial Arts (十八般武藝)
Part 1 spoke about his college life, music road and his family background. There is a clip on someone from India stole his song’s copyright and make into their song. I think they use ‘Zhu Lin Sen Chu’…..
Click next for part 2…..

They really pushed you to MAX!!!!

Few weeks ago, i received a call from a girl called Rainie….

Rainie: Hello, may i speak to Miss Kok?
Me: Speaking here…
Rainie: Hi Ms Kok, I’m Rainie from XXX Skin Solution.I would like to inform you that you have been chosen for a RM400 free facial… I would like to book an appointment with you in our centre in Mid Valley.
Me: Huh?
Rainie: Yes. Miss Kok, you are chosen for our lucky draw for free facial.
Me: Oooo ok… so, you want me to come for free facial?
Rainie: Yes. So, can you give me a date for appointment??
Me: This month?
Rainie: Yes.
Me: Then, i cannot come because I'm based in Ipoh now.
Rainie: Oooo but this promotion is for this month.
Me: Then i cannot come. Thank you…
Rainie: If like this, Ms Kok, I'll hold this promotion till you come back to KL.
Me: (This people are so greedy). OK. So, it will be 14th August then.
Rainie: Ok miss…..

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

白光 - 等著你回來 I’m waiting for you to come home by Bai Guang

I love this song.....
Artist: Bai Guang aka 白光
Title: I’m waiting for you to come home 等著你回來

Seriously, I'm sucker for 40s to 50s Chinese Songs, especially by Yao Lee and Bai Guang or Pow Soo Keong.....
Therefore, when i found this song in YouTube, I'm ecstatic to share with you guys that Bai Kuang is married to Malaysian, and she has a massive big tomb in Semenyih, Malaysia that looks like this...
She even have her own piano tomb….
That played her songs automatically….. OMG… imagine you were there midnight…. and I’m waiting for you to come home 等著你回來 is played during that time… eeerrriiiiieee….
Anyway, here is a little bout Bai Kuang… courtesy of Wikipedia!!!
Bai Guang aka Shi Yongfen is born in Beiping (now is known as Beijing) during 1921, moved to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia during 1999  was a famous movie star and singer. By the 1940s, she became one of the Seven great singing stars.
Upon the Communist takeover in 1949, Bai moved to Hong Kong. By 1950 Bai tired of the low-quality films she was given and retired as an actress in China. After marrying an American GI, she lived in Japan and successfully opened a nightclub in Tokyo's Ginza District in 1953. The union did not last, and she returned to Hong Kong, recording some music through the late 1950s. In 1969 she resettled in the Malaysian capital of Kuala Lumpur, where she married a man 20 years her junior. Her last public appearance was in 1995 at Hong Kong's TV top 10 Chinese singer award presentation.
On August 27, 1999 she died in Kuala Lumpur due to colon cancer at the age of 78
Bai's tomb rests in Semenyih, Malaysia. It is unique since it plays her music. Her gravesite attracts visitors from all around the world including China, Hong Kong, Germany, Denmark and Spain.
It feels so weird because i can’t wait to leave Malaysia, but a famous singer like Bai Guang want to rest for the rest of her life here……  maybe i seriously don’t know how appreciate Malaysia yet…

Sunday, August 15, 2010


I always got a bit emo when I was waiting for my bus ride back to Ipoh.

Despite, I got angry with my sis a while ago, but I still worry and miss her at this moment.

In Chinese, we called this 'hao but dui sam' aka mouth does not match heart!!!! You may said you think this person is not important but deep down in your heart you are so worry for the person. Yes..... I know. I have being a silly girl!!!!

Maybe I have been always worry about little things since young.

When I was young, I worry people don't like me. I look at the other children, they looked so cute and good at doing what children suppose to do. I'm on the other side of the world. I'm not good at making people laugh. I realized all adults such as my aunts and uncles, they prefer my cousins more. I got lesser portion of chocolates too. Even my cousins also didn't play with me. I always feel left out. And I always venture into my own world because no one would play with me.

But, as I grow up, realized I don't need their approval. I only need my dad, mom, sis and bro's blessing to be who am I today!!!!

Things at home have improve. I'm happy because I know they are safe n sound without my presence

Shiau lee

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