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This journey is incredibly humbling for me.

From being wounded and not knowing which way is up and wondering whether or not i could be ALIVE or not and at the same time, finding new MEANING in my new life in this FOREIGN place.....It's been an AMAZING journey

I am a daughter, sister, dog-owner and friend.

Currently, i am learning to train my mind and body. I want to hold my body, challenge my physical ability to a level i could never imagine.

I definitely have learn to stop letting these people who do so little for me in my life but control so much of my mind, feeling and emotions.

Learning to let them go from my life is definitely one of the best achievement i ever done to myself.

Goodbye my friends.... Hope when we meet again, we are once strangers again.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Is it better to be fat but fit, or unfit but thin?????

I always a fat girl since baby, to teenager, and then during adolescent, i also a fat girl..... Especially during school times, i have this big fat ugly thighs that i need to buy the Sri Aman track bottom size XXL....... I have difficulty to find clothes especially pants.... and of course dresses... In fact, to tell the truth, i never have a dress before.... Hmmmm... except the purple ugly dress (NOW ONLY I THINK IS UGLY!!!!!!!!!!! WHY Miss CL and CIK ZK DIDN'T STOP ME FROM BUYING THAT UGLY DRESS???????), which i never wear..... i never been to party with dresses.... always wear my typical jeans and baby-T........ In fact, i bought my first jeans was with Miss JT and Miss LK, in The Factory Outlet........ I have difficult finding beautiful clothes till now.... Actually is not the design, is the person who where those clothes make it looks ugly....

However, even though i'm fat.... but i do consider myself as fit..... At least i can do 30 sit ups in one minute, 25 push up in one minutes, i can run one round of Polo park non-stop ( FOR ME IS A SUCCESS)...... but still my BMI shown i'm overweight... and worst, according to BMI new scale for Asians, i'm close to OBESE!!!!!!!!! WTF??????????? Which means i'm eligible to join the Obesity Program conducted by ME????

I also don't understand... though i'm also love to watch the idiot box aka TV, but i don't consider myself as couch potatoes...... cause i'm active and i exercise too...... Therefore, i never understand why i'm fat and i can't find a proper swimming suit.....

However, when i read this article, it kinda cool me down........... This article is written by Alice from Go Ask Alice.......

I like the fact it said

"It's important to realize that we are not all meant to be thin."

"People make assumptions that the state of a person's body size or shape predicts whether or not s/he is physically fit. This is not always the case. Just as there are slender people who are in poor shape, there are overweight or obese people who are active and fit. So, is body size or shape a better determinant of good health than physical activity, or vice-versa? This continues to be a controversial topic among health experts.

With this in mind, the Cooper Institute for Aerobics Research in Dallas, Texas studied 25,000 men to see how health is affected by both physical fitness and body shape or size. In terms of life expectancy, the researchers found that the fit, fat men lived as long as the fit, trimmer group. In addition, the out-of-shape, slimmer men were found to have a close to three times greater risk of dying early than the in-shape, fat group. These results appear to show fitness as a more significant factor than fatness.

When figuring out your most appropriate weight range, consider all of the previously mentioned factors, in addition to heredity, family health history, and your own weight history. It's important to realize that we are not all meant to be thin."

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I love Ipoh's Tau Fu Fa!!!!

My tulan scaleToday i'm a bit tulan cause i was told to do something which is not my work... and at the end, the person is the one that get all the damm fu*king credits.... GTH... A**hole!!!!!

Well, despite how many time i said and told my friend about how much i dislike staying and living in dead town Ipoh, how much i hate to go home after work and yoga alone, how much lonely i felt when my auto gate open and my Kingkong is not there, wagging his tail and greet me....and how much i miss my house back in Peejay.....How much i miss my home till very time i go home and step into my aunt's house without my annoying brother, troublesome sister, caring mama and fatherly daddy there for me..... to greet me.... to ask how is my work today.... to tell me to wash dishes.... to argue over the Astro remote control.... ........ i feel so lonely and sad....

Though I'm just 3 hours away from parents and duck rice...... I felt is like the journey is 3 days away......And for 10 months faraway from home, i guess this is rather a good improvement.... And i do believe the record will continue to be break.....

However, there are something i really like Ipoh.... In fact, these are the small things that put me in sane while staying in Ipoh for the past 10 months...

One of its are

Wong Kee Tau Fu Fa in Bercham


This delicious, smooth and addictive Tau Fu Fa stall is situated are Bercham. The stall is named Meng Kee. The stall is parked right in front of 7-11 of Bercham..... and it is only begins its business at 5.30pm till 11pm..... So, if you wanna have light tea time or supper.... this Tau Fu Fa is recommended.

There will be few tables parked in front of 7-11 for those who wants to have on the spot...

The tau fu fa is so ....so....so....damm.....damm....damm... tasty and delicious.....and is the only stall that i will go daily to have my tau fu fa fix.......In fact, you can smell the traditional charcoal aroma from this stall

Why???? Because they used charcoal to heat up their ginger sugar.....

However, i love my tau fu fa with Melaka sugar....

Hence, i order a bowl for myself....


While i'm enjoying my view...... watching people waiting for their tau fu fa fix in this stall non-stop.... Even, the Indian lady can't resist the tau fu fa, despite don't have place for her to sit.... she sit behind the stall and enjoy her tau fu fa.....


The texture of this Meng Kee Tau fu fa is smooth, soft and slowly it melts into your mouth in no time......The sugar and the tau fu fa is well-blended.... I love the taste of traditional Melaka sugar.... which has a slight special taste if is taken with this tau fu fa....

The feeling is so damm traditional and it felt so right especially when using these traditional China bowl and spoon..... the 'clink and clank' sound when i scooped my tau fu fa from the bowl..... It somehow reminds me of my grandma.... I miss her.....

And the feeling is more ooommmppp.... if you sit using the lower stool, you bend over and take a small sip of this tau fu fa.... Taste the sweetness.... the smoothness.... the softness..... go right into your mouth, pass through your throat and it travels slowly into your stomach...

(Actually, i can see the uncle face is so damm tulan... cause the chair is so uncomfortable for him.... !@#$%^&*)

The feeling so great... after a hard work day from work and yoga, i can feel my fatigues, my body is asking for calories.... i drop by Weng Kee Tau Fu Fa...... took my seat... order a bowl of tau fu fa with Melaka sugar..... While observing people who are there to buy Melaka kuih, economy noodles, breads and biscuit.... and of course tau fu fa....

I didn't know the time has passes..... till i almost finish my bowl of tau fu fa....


I paid .... and walked away.... my tummy feels satisfied with the tau fu fa.....

And i took a glance back to the stall.... Seeing the mother and her daughters, together they helped each other.... It reminds me those days i was helping my dad in my dad's shop.....

Sunday, May 25, 2008

I'm a just a physiotherapist and i know about Sichuan Earthquake.... Do you???

Today i read on the The Associated Press, and read an article titled ' Zhang Ziyi says she's outraged by quake ignorance'

Zhang Ziyi has been busy raising funds for the Sichuan Earthquake..... together with the status help from her fiance, Vivi Nevo, she managed to raise a sum of money.....

However, she was outraged when she found out a group of solicitors during Cannes Film Festival in France know nothing about the earthquake.... WTF... these people are well-dressed, damm f*cking rich people.... and they know nothing bout Sichuan earthquake... and i'm a just a underpaid physiotherapist in government sector.... i squeezed the hell from my pay to help those people despite i know is little......

So she said this to the group of ignorance solictors

"Are you idiots? You are well-dressed people who look like you identify with society, but you don't know what's going on on planet Earth.' It's incredible!"

Woooooo hooooo............. KUDOS TO YOU ZHANG ZIYI..... You are great...

Dear friends,

No matter who are you, what you do, where you are..... You also can do the same...... I remember i read the Star Malaysia this morning.....

A lady who is living with HIV/AIDS, told her friends, "Our blood is not suitable to help, but our money can.... let's donate to them..... "

A beggar chipped in his coins from begging to donate to the earthquake......

So, do find out bout Sichuan earthquake... and help whenever u can, whether financially, emotionaly or physically...

Promise MV by Andy Lau and co for Sichuan Earthquake victims

Today i watched Phoenix again..... and Sichuan is having drizzling rain.... making the search more difficult..... and also i saw a clip on interviews between the teachers and students of Juyuan Middle school, who has lost children, friends, teachers and students......

When a teacher told the host that he had lost his daughter...... Then, a student walked towards him and told him, " Don't worry, teacher.... We will be your children..... we will" Tears start rolling down the cheek of the teacher and also the host....... He can't hold back his tears not because he lost his daughter to the Sichuan Earthquake..... but because he can't believe this little student of him, offered to be his daughter despite she is mourning for losing her parents to the earthquake......

After the clip, a MV set in..... this is a Beyond's "Boundless Ocean Vast Sky, that was rewritten by Andy Lau and is named as 'Promise'.....

There are two hundred artistes and celebrities, ranging from Maria Cordero to Justin Lo get together at the recording studios at RTHK...... to sing this son together as a message of care and love to the victims of Sichuan Earthquake......

This are the longer version of the MV



Few days back, i make a donation for the Sichuan earthquake..... though is little amount..... but i still do it.... U wanna know how to donate for the Sichuan Earthquake....Go to Mercy Malaysia

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

The best 'Kacang Merah Ais' in Ipoh


My Tulan ScaleToday is rather a nice day.... besides able to blog bout food.... i also had a great day out with a friend....

Well..... well.... well.... Finally, after 10 months in Ipoh....... I have the guts to write bout Ipoh food..... the food haven of Malaysia...... After all, everytime i go out eat, i just don't have the time to take pict.....

And today i'm gonna bullshit bout the best 'kacang merah ais' (Red Bean Ice) in Ipoh.... Direct translation.... "Hong Tau Ping'........ Hmmmm.... yummy yummy.......By just bullshitting bout it, my saliva already starts drooling....

Well, this particular shop is situated at Bercham, Ipoh..... In fact, is very near the new Tesco, Tesco Extra in Bercham Ipoh..... From the traffic light near Tesco Extra, go straight to Bercham Village till you see a Mobil Gas station, turn left at the traffic light, you'll see a restaurant at the corner called ????? If forgot the name, but it is the only corner restaurant on the right after the traffic light... For further direction, jus email me k??? Cause i still dunno how to draw those cute maps like KY drew for my dad's duck rice stall in his blog.....

You will see a small stall like this in the restaurant that sells 'Yong Liew Fan' aka Yong Tau Fu stuffs with Noodles....

Delicious 'Hong Tau Ping'........ if not mistaken, they blend the red bean and coconut milk together.... or else, why is it so smooth and creamy??????

Hmmm... begins your meals with a sip of this 'Hong Tau Ping'.... Besides red bean, they also have Jagung Ais (Corn Ice) aka Jia Gong Ping..... or you can even ask for 'Ying Yong' means mixture of red bean and corn ice together.... Yummy....

Then, you can order noodles, either with soy sauce, soup, assam laksa and even lo soup....

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Red bean and noodles not enough for you....

Don't worry.... you can order this as well....

'Yong Liew in Assam laksa Soup'

'Tau Pok'

Fried 'Yong Liew'

Pork Meat Ball

Fried 'Fu Chook'

And you end your meal with the last sip of 'Hong Tau Ping'


However, do keep in mind, that this 'Yong Liew stall only opens after 6.00 pm.... only serve dinner..... But, the 'Hong Tau Ping' is available from morning.......

Bon Appetit my friend....

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Here In My Home - Malaysian Artistes For Unity Lyric

My Tulan Scale
Today i don't feel tulan at all because i listened to a great song create by Malaysians for Malaysian...

BY MALAYSIAN FOR MALAYSIAN

This song is one of the best quality songs created purely by Malaysians in term of tune, lyrics and also the meaning of the music...

Created by a bunch of cool and talented Malaysians..... From the creator of the songs till the Video directors..... This song is by Malaysians for Malaysians......

However, the reason of this song is to create an anti-racism national unity song and music video..... Thus to find out more bout the songs, go here... Or you want to find out who is who in the song.... Go here..... Or you want to download the song, music video, lyric, ringtone.... Go here.... (This is the best part... i'm so glad for unity reason, there is no restriction in term of piracy.....)

Now enjoy the music........ and enjoy to be Malaysian and be proud to be Malaysian......


Feel free to copy and sing-a-long with the lyric provided as below too..... I'm sorry if there is mistake with the words as i'm too blur with catching up the the rap especially the Tamil version.... though i had been listening to this song over, over and over again.....



HERE IN MY HOME - MALAYSIAN ARTISTES FOR UNITY LYRIC

Hold on brother hold on

The road is long, we’re on stony ground

But I’m strong, and you ain’t heavy

Oh there ‘s a misspoken truth that lies

Colors don’t bind, oh no

What do they know? They speak falsely

Here in my home

I’ll tell you what it’s all about

There’s just one hope here in my heart,

One love undivided

That’s what it’s all about

Please won’t you fall in one by one by one with me?

Fall in, fall in, fall in with me

Fall in fall in fall in with me

Push back sister won’t you push back?

Love won’t wait, just keep pushing on,

Yes I’m strong, you ain’t heavy

Oh don’t you worry about that

What we have shadows can’t deny

Don’t you know it’s now or never?

(Chorus)

Here in my home

I’ll tell you what it’s all about

There’s just one hope here in my heart

One love undivided

That’s what it’s all about

Please won’t you fall in one by one?

Do….do….Do….do….Do….

(RAP-MALAY)

Bertubi asakan berkurun lamanya

Years of fears and years of tribulation

Hati ke depan mencari yang sayang

The heart keeps searching for that endless devotion

(RAP-CHINESE)

Shou Qian Shou Da Jia Yi Qi Zhou

Hand in hand we’ll march like blood brothers

Wo Dai Piao Hua Ren Kai Kou, Wei Lai Jiu Qing Mei You, Yi Qi Zhou

I speak for my people, hope we’ll find peace forever

(RAP-TAMIL)

Payanam Payenam Envithri Tagam

May the road ahead quench my thirst for success

Ante Kana Kalan Nam Vitri Ragam Nam Valta

May the road behind echo a song of the blessed

(RAP-ENGLISH)

Yes I feel it in my bones, so I will let it be known

No matter where I roam thie is home sweet home

Chorus X 3

Here in my home

I’ll tell you what it’s all about

There’s just one hope here in my heart

One love undivided

That’s what it’s all about

Please won’t out fall in one by one by one with me?

DO SPREAD AROUND BOUT THIS SONG, ABOUT UNITY, ABOUT BEING MALAYSIAN...


Tribute : A man named Chen Jian

My Tulan ScareToday i feel very tulan cause GOD CREATED SO MANY OBSTACLES FOR US>>>>> IS THAT A MEANING BEHIND ALL THESE??????


I usually don't watch Phoenix (Channel 312) in Astro as i don't like news especially in Chinese as i don't understand the deep accent spoken by the news anchor. However, today exactly at 8.30pm, a news in Phoenix caught my attention....... The news is about Sichuan Earthquake 12 May 2008, and this particular news that caught my attention is about 'A Man Named Chen Jian'.

The news is about the rescue of a 26 years old man named Chen Jian, who was trapped under rocks of buildings for 73 hours. Under those rocks, Chen Jian talked and talked non-stop with the rescue teams and also journalists bout his wife, his unborn baby, his job and his determination to stay alive. In fact, in the clip, there is no words on blaming God for creating this earthquake, there is no voice of regrets for being at the place at the wrong time.

It was known that Chen Jian had been trapped under those rocks for 3 days 3 nights with no food..... and he survived those 3 days........ While the rescue workers waited for the rescue equipments, journalist talked to him, keep telling him not to sleep but rest so, he can gathered his energy to pull himself out from this rocks. According to the news, it takes 4 hours for the rescue workers to reach Chen Jian trapped site as the nearest rescue camp is down the hill, where Chen Jian was trapped.

Once the rescue equipments has arrived, rescue workers started their work even though the night falls. It took them 6 long hours to bring Chen Jian out from the rubbles, however, while they were bringing Chen Jian to the rescue camp, Chen Jian stopped talking and he had a cardiac arrest and passed away.

The officer who did CPR on him, kept rendering to him.....

"You foolish man, you waited for so long......Why can't you wait for a little while????? You foolish man!!!!!"

This are the clip i took from You Tube with English subtitles, suitable for people like me who do not understand the Chinese slang....



Watching the news really bring me to tears, seeing this man at his most fragile moment, he hold on to it.......... and not even a words of blame and regrets, in fact he ended his life with words of thankful to the rescue workers who brought him our from the rocks and rubbles. while me was complaining and and raising my temper about the air cond in the ferry to Langkawi Island 2 days ago..... SHAME OF ME!!!!!!!

At the same time, This news really bring up my spirit, make me realize how fragile is my life, and all the time, i take granted on many things..... i put myself in depression over silly fights with my sister, i put myself to escapism over the death of him, i put myself in anger over stupid chocolates with my cousins, i put myself to shame over this silly things.........

To you who you know who you are, no matter how much changes in your stage of life, whether you are facing other people's stigma ism, or you are on a stage of heart breaking, or you are depending on drug to calm yourself, do keep in mind that life is very fragile, don't take it for granted....... i don't see the point of you hanging yourself there for so long, and you end up getting yourself hurting for no reason.......... Rest but never quit........ cause you end up hurting yourself for no reason......

In the clip, Chen Jian did mentioned these words,

" I'm a lucky and also unlucky person. i know i escaped from death. Many people are less fortunate than me. Although, i cannot move, i have not eaten for 3 days 3 nights. I only drank some water. i must be strong, i have to be strong, i have to be strong for those who loves me. i must live because this people has been good for me. I hope i won't be intimidated by any hardship"

This pose is a tribue to a man named Chen Jian......

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Funny Sign Boards You'll See In Malaysia....

My Tulan scale


Today i'm less tulan, in fact didn't any tulan at all, because today i have a great day as i walked my young TBI patient..... and today it was her first walk since her accident..... her mom sheds her tears when she saw her daughter took the first walk since the accident...... Suddenly, i felt like i chose the best occupation after all......

Here are some of the sign boards u may see along your ways around Malaysia.....

Please do understand i received this sign boards from my cousin, thus the pictures are not taken for me..... i just wanna share the joy.....

What will you nick name your 'little bro'????

I always know some of my friends called it Little Dick... because it is little...

But never heard of calling it Big John????

Well, "Big John" is not as long as you think..... is probably as big as you think.......


If you want to name your son..... think hard.... really think hard......

If you want to put your name in road sign, change your name in your identification card....

Definitely this is in Malaysia, look at the no-so-classic phone booth....


You are allow to spit.....

But dun spit hard....

Thank you......

If you want to be adventure, please join my latest wheelchair competition....

with no charge of fee...
i wonder does it comes with safety equipments?????


Well..... Not everybody is smart enough to know that there will be water on the road if is raining.....

They need the sign board to tell them.....


The latest way to prevent theft in your shop,

Survivors will be prosecuted???? Will there be survivors first????


No words can describe it.... I just can't find the words.....

Pictures say it all....

But, i do love the 'blow job' picture..... Cool......

Monday, May 12, 2008

What happened to your ASS if you get 20 rotans?????

Do you know what happened

if you smuggled drugs,

if you 'rempit' around (hopefully there is a canning for those idiotic mat rempits),

if you hit your wife or your children with your fist,

if you hit your husband with your high heels,

if you stab others' ass

WTF......You got tied up in this way with the most innovative tilt table......


Do u know what happened to ur ass if you get smacked by those officers in prison...?????

It turns out this way after 20 smacks using the whip....

WTF......


Get the full peek from here......

Enjoy.....



Updated: Was informed by a friend, it can't be seen on you tube....

Maybe this will help....

video
Thanks to asiaone entertainment for the clip.......


Saturday, May 3, 2008

The First Malaysian Dreamgirl goes to...

My tulan scale today...

Today i'm less tulan cause i saw the finale of MDG... i love the way Elaine Daly kept on mentioning that MDG is solely due to voting basis during the Finale in One Utama... and she and the rest of the judges had nothing to do with it, which means she also want HANIS won, she even said that in the Star..... and also the last episode of MDG, when Alison was trying so hard to bring out the unfairness she felt and also how much CIndy does not deserve to win.....

Therefore, to all my friends, this will be the last post on MDG from me, i rest my case for now, and i'm so satisfied with MDG production crews for airing that part of Alison asking Cindy that question whether she deserved to win or not... though she said she deserves it... ([Piuutttt, pleasela....) and i'm looking forward to watch the 2nd season of MDG... Hope it will improve......... Gambate.....

Well, the end has comes.... and i wasted my time.... ok.... ok... even though i willingly did .... but still it is waste of time.... NVM.... Ipoh is so bored.... MDG is one of my refuges here... and also to see the drama and suspen created by Miss CINDY.......

and

The winner is.....

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HANIS MANIS

She looks so stunning in this red dress.... So damm gorgeous.....

And other winners of Malaysian Dreamgirl are:


I just can't help it... cause she deserves to win....This is her best shot... and i love her attitude..... she is way too mature than a 17 years old girl....
Looks and brain.... you got it all....

IAdeline is another great girl... despite being Ah Lian... and always have lousy photos taken.... but i salute her determination and also her innocence and her sincerity to do her best in MDG.... and hope the best for her...

Jay is my Malaysia Dreamgirl.... cause she has the look, height, body.... and also the attitude.... good job.... definitely is a good model... maybe the next Amber Chia

Eyna had the best pictures taken... But though, i think she better be still-photos model.... Runaway model is not suitable... all the time till she is eliminated.... but cause she is too quite, thus she is not appealing the the viewers.... *SOB*... but u got my votes....

Ringo is the sweet infamous blogger.... i really like her smile and also she is doing great job as one of the MDG girls...... and also read her blog.... Hope she will blog bout MDG... especially on Cindy...

Last but not least, Alison, though she only been in the show for two weeks, but in da last episode of MDG, i just love to see the way she talks, the way she trying to make Cindy to realize she is jus Malaysian Dreambitch not Malaysian Dreamgirl... You have my respect, dude.... Hope to see u in Facebook....


However at the end, the Malaysian Dreamgirl go to this girl..


To Cindy.....

I'm not sorry calling u bitch... I'm happy i wrote the post "Malaysian Dreamgirl turns Malaysia Dreambitch" though earlier in the episodes, i kinda like you being open and be yourself in da show.... because that's you... and you are one hell good BITCH.... but at the end, is not bout your attitude... Is about you jus dun deseve to win.... cause you didn't win.... your dad bought you the title.... (and i wan your dad to be my dad la).... and bout your accent, i dun give a dammla..... I dun give a damm you chose to speak Australian English but not Manglish... and congrats for being yourself.... though in da video, you said thanks to us for critising you.....

But i bet later off-camera.... you will said...

" Damm shit da innocentwitch.,... called me Malaysian Dreambitch.... and let other ppl start to call me tat... and started the damm post in Faceboook bout.... Malaysian Dreamgirl turns into Malaysian Dreambitch.... You are going to be dead meat... i'm going to ask my dad to buy me parang and chopped her into hundred pieces!@#$%^&*("

Hey does that remind you of you bitching with your dad during the show... calling ppl "In Ni Po" and "Ma Lai Po"?????? I think is very rude to call ppl names in public.... even though you are a nice person, even though i dunno you personally..... but seeing u started to call people names as above in the following episodes... really make me has this kind of ill-hatred feeling... and you just dun deserve my respect... which i know you will say "WHO NEEDS A INNOCENT WITCH RESPECT?????" Is not right to call people that......

*Shake head*........