This journey is incredibly humbling for me.

From being wounded and not knowing which way is up and wondering whether or not i could be ALIVE or not and at the same time, finding new MEANING in my new life in this FOREIGN place.....It's been an AMAZING journey

I am a daughter, sister, dog-owner and friend.

Currently, i am learning to train my mind and body. I want to hold my body, challenge my physical ability to a level i could never imagine.

I definitely have learn to stop letting these people who do so little for me in my life but control so much of my mind, feeling and emotions.

Learning to let them go from my life is definitely one of the best achievement i ever done to myself.

Goodbye my friends.... Hope when we meet again, we are once strangers again.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Part 2 - As time passes....

Time heals the wound, at least for temporary moment.

The girl's sister was in expensive country. Everybody is proud of her sister and amazed cause her sister was working in expensive country. But the girl was nobody because the girl had nothing.

However, the girl moved on. She found herself an opportunity to study with support from her dirty kingdom. Although her kingdom is a dirty kingdom, at least she got her free education. The girl enjoyed her free education, she met many good friends as well as many good enemies who taught her many valuable lessons.

The girl've learned no matter how close a person with another person, the another person will still backstab you by bad mouthing you when you were asleep, at least the another person thought you are asleep.

The girl've learned 'real' friend was a person who spread bad rumors about you at the same time consoled you because you were down because of the rumor.

The girl've learned the whole class will boikot you because you were close with the teachers

The girl've learned not to be so blur because it was too late to know the thruth after 5 years the in incident happened because there was nothing you can do anymore.

But the most valuable lesson she learnt during her free education is true and sincere friend will be there for you no matter what you become and where you end up and always know how to handle your moodiness. She met 'cat city' girl.

One fine day, the girl's sister caught a bug. And her sister was not well in expensive country. The bug changed her sister into another person. On and off, her sister will turn different person.

Sometimes her sister was God, sometimes her sister was baby, sometimes her sister was herself, sometimes her sister was not anymore sister.

This transformation of sister was troubling the girl and the girl's family. But, the girl's family was strong and concerned. The family found many ways to cure her sister.

They sent the girl to expensive country and brought back her sister.

They assigned the brother to monitor her sister 24/7.

They found many God's helpers to take out the bug from her sister.

They spent a lot of money $$$ on her sister. They needed to pay the 'heart healer' for their time and medications.

Every week, the girl returned home and got upset and got angry at her sister, they fought till her sister went 'angrier' than the girl and needed to sent to 'place for sick people'. The girl's father pleaded to the girl not to be angry anymore. The girl's heart broke into pieces when she heard her father's plea. From that day onwards, the girl swore she will not break her dad and mom's heart even though her heart broke into pieces.

Life was like vicious cycle. Girl went to free education, then girl went home, girl saw her sister not recovering, girl kept quiet and turned heart broken, girl went back free education but girl did not show anybody that she was heartbroken because girl put everything behind her. And the cycle goes again and again.

Life continued to be in vicious cycle like this even girl moved to rainforest. In concrete world, the girl turned like a monster. But when the girl returned to rainforest, the girl turned normal self. The girl was happy.

But at the same time, the girl was worry for her parents. The girl's parents are old and they yet to enjoy their golden years. Instead of using their money for their golden years, they were using their money to support her sister. Thus, the girl makes a stupid decision. The girl returned to concrete world with the hope to take care of her parents.

But least to know, the girl's worst nightmare was about to appear. Her bitter self reappeared again...

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