This journey is incredibly humbling for me.

From being wounded and not knowing which way is up and wondering whether or not i could be ALIVE or not and at the same time, finding new MEANING in my new life in this FOREIGN place.....It's been an AMAZING journey

I am a daughter, sister, dog-owner and friend.

Currently, i am learning to train my mind and body. I want to hold my body, challenge my physical ability to a level i could never imagine.

I definitely have learn to stop letting these people who do so little for me in my life but control so much of my mind, feeling and emotions.

Learning to let them go from my life is definitely one of the best achievement i ever done to myself.

Goodbye my friends.... Hope when we meet again, we are once strangers again.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Because he is my daddy.

This morning, i look at the clock.

Is already 10.10 am.

I’m sure my dad is awake because that’s the time he will walk Kingkong. Is his daily routine. Or in fact, is Kingkong’s daily routine. Even though my dad is not around, Kingkong will not let go anybody in the house if his routine is not complete on the day itself.


Since i left PJ, my dad is the person that take of Kingkong. I’m sure Kingkong is more affection towards dad than me. However, he deserves it.

Because he is my daddy.


I picked up my phone and called dad. It rings many times but dad did not answer. I’m sure he is with Kingkong now. Just like in this picture.


So, i waited.


Dad replied my call.

The first thing he asked ‘You called me? Something happened?”  His voice filled with concern and care. 

And i missed that.

Because he is my daddy.

I realized my affection towards my dad grow as I'm older. I do not why? When i was young, i always remembered dad as a stern parent. My cousins teased my dad for being a strict uncle when he was young. Sometimes they will mocked his antique. We always remember his stern voice in the car. Whenever we make noise, once he warned us, none of us has the gut to make a second of noise. 

Because he is my daddy.


I realized my daddy is a patience dad. When incidence happened in my family, my dad is the calmest person in the family. When Al’s condition relapsed, my dad is the person who will be there for her. I worked in hospital too long to realized reality can be cruel because outside there, there are many parents will leave their children with such conditions. But my dad strictly do what he should as a dad. 

He protects his family.

Because he is my daddy.

Another thing that represent my dad is his fondest towards China. He with his ‘Chinaman’ stomach, cannot tolerate raw Japanese food, and always find chances to China. To explore the root of his origin.

Because he is my daddy.


I realized our family never have a chance to sit at home as one because of the nature of my family business, therefore Fatty Duck Rice stall is the 2nd home. My siblings and I make an effort to help our parents, not because of the wages we received, but because we realized this 2nd home is where we gather together as one family. Leaving faraway from my family, i can feel the importance of dad in my life. What a doting dad he is, he definitely make an impact in my life. When i was helping him over the weekend, customers will asked “ Is this your daughter?, How come so long we never see her?” And he will proudly answer, “ This daughter works in Ipoh hospital as physiotherapist, she only will come here when she comes back for weekend.” So i knew, indirectly, he is proud of me as who i am today.

Because he is my daddy.


My dad does not read English well, while i do not write and read Chinese at all. Thus, my dad would not understand this post is dedicated to him. But I'm sure he understands my love to him.

Because he is my daddy.

Papa, happy father’s day.

Please forgive me because i have my way of saying ‘i love you’ in form of many wordings.

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