I came home. And as usual, she is lying on the couch again. I looked at the table, used plates and cups scattered on the table.
Today is already 4th day she did nothing again... She refused to get up again from bed again....
And this sight breaks my heart.
I spoke to brother...
He said ' Just scold her, tell people nobody will understand, keep to ourself, we will suffer, might as well just scold her'
Brother is right..... No matter how much you tell anybody, nobody will understand what we are going through.
Spoke to her again today but I did not get any response from her. I guess it doesn't matter to her....
Today's mood : Depressed to max...
This journey is incredibly humbling for me.
From being wounded and not knowing which way is up and wondering whether or not i could be ALIVE or not and at the same time, finding new MEANING in my new life in this FOREIGN place.....It's been an AMAZING journey
I am a daughter, sister, dog-owner and friend.
Currently, i am learning to train my mind and body. I want to hold my body, challenge my physical ability to a level i could never imagine.
I definitely have learn to stop letting these people who do so little for me in my life but control so much of my mind, feeling and emotions.
Learning to let them go from my life is definitely one of the best achievement i ever done to myself.
Goodbye my friends.... Hope when we meet again, we are once strangers again.
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Home is not Like Home Anymore...
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