This journey is incredibly humbling for me.

From being wounded and not knowing which way is up and wondering whether or not i could be ALIVE or not and at the same time, finding new MEANING in my new life in this FOREIGN place.....It's been an AMAZING journey

I am a daughter, sister, dog-owner and friend.

Currently, i am learning to train my mind and body. I want to hold my body, challenge my physical ability to a level i could never imagine.

I definitely have learn to stop letting these people who do so little for me in my life but control so much of my mind, feeling and emotions.

Learning to let them go from my life is definitely one of the best achievement i ever done to myself.

Goodbye my friends.... Hope when we meet again, we are once strangers again.

Sunday, February 7, 2016

Chinese New Year Eve

Today is Chinese New Year eve, but for some reason, I am still in Saudi Arabia. It is indeed a sad atmosphere for me here. I keep looking at the CCTV, my family is busy, spring cleaning the house at last minute. This is tradition for us. My dad's business only close on Chinese New Year Eve, thus, we usually would not take any leave at all till the day before Chinese New Year Eve because there will be many orders from customers. It seemed braised duck is one of a must dish for Teo Chew family gathering.

Cold and foggy day in Al Hada

I feel the spam of sadness for past one week. I feel sad because I know I will be celebrating CNY in Saudi Arabia alone and also two of my friends are leaving my current hospital for another hospital in the same town. Although they are still around, I think it makes a lot of different because most of my times I spent are with them and also with Little E. And Little E is in Malaysia already.

So, this Chinese New Year is also a new beginning with me with slight different atmosphere. I guess is also a good training for me to learn how to really live on my own. After all, the reason I left Malaysia from beginning is to stay far away from people I know and learn to live on my own and deal with my own sadness. And also to learn to release attachment with my family.

Happy Chinese New Year....


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