Today, my 16 years old Mongrel can barely stand up, can barely sniff me, can barely bark at me. I know he is in pain. But it doesn't stop him from wagging his tail every single time i came home....
Xiao Xiao...
Dear Kingkong,
i know that you are not well now….But I don’t know whether are you in pain now… However, you never show you are in pain. Your eyes told me you want to sleep all the time…..
Every morning, i whistled for you and you no longer come to me…
Every night, i called you name and you no longer run towards me…
I know you are weak now, but i believe you are also strong as well…
I spoke to myself that i would let you go…. But my heart told me is not up to me whether to let you go…. Is up to you…
I’m so happy to see you ran to the postman today. I’m happy to hear you bark…. Although is not strong as before, but i can hear the bark of bravery. From that time onwards, i know you are not ready to let go…
For the past four months, i no longer see you ran to the backdoor as you always did because you want to send me off to school…. I knew there is something wrong already.
But, I'm glad till today, you were waiting for me to come home even though you were just lying on the floor while you wagged your tail. I love it when you did that.
My heart ache when i change your diapers because i can see how all the blood oozing out from your wound. My heart ache when i did not hear a wimp from you. You are such a strong boy….
Therefore, I'm glad i came back to KL despite i suffer so much at work. There is nothing more important than being by your side till i hear your last breath….
Kingkong,
I'll stay by your side till you ready to let go. Let’s be strong together. I promise you that i would stop letting you see my tears because i knew you will tear too…
I love you, Kingkong….
Love,
Your sis, your companion
Shiau Lee
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