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This journey is incredibly humbling for me.

From being wounded and not knowing which way is up and wondering whether or not i could be ALIVE or not and at the same time, finding new MEANING in my new life in this FOREIGN place.....It's been an AMAZING journey

I am a daughter, sister, dog-owner and friend.

Currently, i am learning to train my mind and body. I want to hold my body, challenge my physical ability to a level i could never imagine.

I definitely have learn to stop letting these people who do so little for me in my life but control so much of my mind, feeling and emotions.

Learning to let them go from my life is definitely one of the best achievement i ever done to myself.

Goodbye my friends.... Hope when we meet again, we are once strangers again.

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Hello King kong!!


Dear King Kong,

Is already 4 years since you are not around. Is also 2 years plus since i left home. You remembered this picture? You are not well and you hardly can stand and smile because you were not well, but i still force you to take picture with me. This is definitely one of my most precious picture of you even though is blurry and you look ugly in it...

I miss you, boy....

And i miss your little sister too....

Is almost a year since i see her...

But don't worry, i am coming home soon.

Boy, do you know there are so many things happen this 2 years in Saudi? Not only i recovered from depression, but i also see, learn and gain many things. I just went to Europe trip for almost 6 weeks, on my own. I joined a volleyball group and recently we won the championship. I still remember how you hate ball so much. Every time i drill the ball on the floor, you will sure run and hide. You are really one silly boy. And i also learnt how to distance myself from negative people too.

I am beginning to miss home. And also i do not enjoy working in this hospital anymore. That is why i am leaving once i finish this contract or i will probably resign early if i got a place in Chinese University of HK.

You must have thinking i am creating more troubles for myself, right? I know how much i hate studying, but you always know i need a master to get a better job in future, right? Although i love the money from Saudi Arabia but i really don't like the work ethic and also the kinds of patients i received here. I feel i cannot apply my skills completely in Saudi Arabia, not only i have language barrier but also the people here are not as open minded and also hard working as the patients i had in Malaysia.

So, do you think i am good girl? I went into depression when you left, suffered humiliation from my so called 'good friends', went into deeper depression because of that, came to Saudi Arabia to earn money, left papa, mama, jie jie, Joe and Kiki, left many good friends at home, met many different people, learnt new language and culture, met a bunch of good friends here, joined a volleyball team, won a volleyball championship and even went to Europe for 6 weeks on my own...and now i am completely recovered from depression.. And now i am looking forward to come home...

Don't forget to come to my dream and visit me today. Let's meet again and tell each other stories.

Ok?

Missing you, brother!!!

Love you!!!

Xiao....