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This journey is incredibly humbling for me.

From being wounded and not knowing which way is up and wondering whether or not i could be ALIVE or not and at the same time, finding new MEANING in my new life in this FOREIGN place.....It's been an AMAZING journey

I am a daughter, sister, dog-owner and friend.

Currently, i am learning to train my mind and body. I want to hold my body, challenge my physical ability to a level i could never imagine.

I definitely have learn to stop letting these people who do so little for me in my life but control so much of my mind, feeling and emotions.

Learning to let them go from my life is definitely one of the best achievement i ever done to myself.

Goodbye my friends.... Hope when we meet again, we are once strangers again.

Monday, December 13, 2010

I'm patient now. I ain't Physioterapist anymore

16



A number that is right in front of me. I have been waiting for 45 mins in front of this door. Today is my 2nd appointment for my post op ACL reconstruction. Currently, I'm in General Hospital of Kuala Lumpur Orthopedic clinic, while my world-best-brother is waiting in car patiently. He knew what to prepared every time he drives me for my appointment in hospital. He got tons of DVDs in the car for him to burn his times or maybe he will catch up with his sleep he missed during his PSP game playing time.

5045



Is another number I'm anticipating on the digital scoreboard. My internal yet reliable source told me no need to come at 9am as what my appointment written cause the specialist never come down to clinic by 9am.

3



Is the number of scars on my right knee. Dr. Bazam said I should take picture of my beautiful and scarless knee before operation and he is right it looks more macho now.

10.34



Is exactly one hour since i put my butt on this chair because i'm still waiting to see my doctor. My emotion is full with thoughts. This is how patient felt. Their thoughts are filled with number like mine!!!!

I'm patient now. I ain't physiotherapist anymore

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Thursday, December 9, 2010

Death and assignment.

In Mediacorp's New Beginnings, the main actor asked Jeannette Aw about death.

What is death?

Is she afraid of death???

Jeannette Aw said death means no regret with whatever you do in ur life.

Do what you must do.

Say what you must do.

Hear what you must hear.




When I heard these words, I thought of my thesis. I felt the guilt. I did not finish my thesis according to the dateline. I have been lacking. I did not do things I should do. I should say I have been lazy. I caught up with lots of dramas and movies I missed when I was in Ipoh.

Therefore, I must catch up with my dateline.


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